Avatar

Just got done watching Avatar with my parents. (Yes, I have nothing better to do on a Friday night than hang with my parents...I love them, but still)...Not that I'm hear to wallow in self pity, on the contrary, I think deep down there isn't any other way I would have like to spend the first night of my weekend. I think the only reason why I would be wallowing in self pity is because of the pressure people put on the weekend as a time to get out, THEY see it as pity, I see it as relaxation :)

Anyway, now that I wasted a paragraph on that, let me get to Avatar. I personally think it is a pretty bomb movie. It's one of those movies that leaves you with a feeling... I don't know how to describe the feeling, but I get it sometimes after watching movies. It's, in a way, an uplifting feeling, a sense that all is right with the world. Now, this feeling from Avatar can be a result of several things (1) the spectacular, beautiful creation that is that land that they live in (2) the triumphant victory between of good over evil (3) the overall deep and peaceful connection the creatures have with their world and eachother.

I could go on, but I just realized that I'm extremely tired.... basically my point is how often I find myself wrapped up in another world, a world of ideals, filled with disappointment when those ideals never come true. Why not live in the present? Accept life's imperfections and love life more for it... Christ does that for us, He loves us despite our numerous failures. Why can't we have the same respect and love for the life He has given us? Why must we flood our heads with the false realities seen in movies? When did we let the ideal of someone else's life, someone else's story cloud our perceptions of our own life? These questions are generalized...but they are really directed at myself.

Flying in an airplane...

So as I sit here at starbucks drinking my quad-shot venti caramel machiatto that I got for free :) I am attempting to do some much needed self reflection, but all the comes to mind is a Barney song that makes me think of the little girl I work with. The song goes like this...



"Flying in an airplane, looking out the window

watching the clouds go by..

Flying in an airplane, looking out the window

up so very high..."



So Miya sings this every time we are playing outside and an airplane flies overhead (it's so cute!). Ironically, I think this is the only song that can accurately begin to express where I have been for the last month and a half or so. You see, I feel like I have just been watching the clouds in my life go by, like yes my physical body is here in the present, but my mind is in the clouds just watching the time pass. I'm just up in the air disconnected from the world that I've known, flying in circles with no direction.



April came and went, May is almost half way gone...all the while the clouds were passing by. I've been spread too thin, putting my faith in the clouds. The clouds change, the clouds dissappear, they aren't reliable. I've been left with nothing but blue sky, empty and lost. I want to begin my descent back to reality, back to the core of who I am, back to Christ. I want to be present in this world, living for the sole purpose of Christ. May this summer be one of discovery, one of change, one of growth. May I reach my destination with a successful landing. May He welcome me with open arms as I get off that airplane, and may He remind me that He had been in the cockpit, flying my plane the entire time, never leaving my side.

The Wrist of an Artist...

Blah blah blah...i am really bored in class right now. Just one week and this will be over! Hooray for summer :) Anybody else excited? I am, super stoked! (yes i just said "stoked") did i say i was bored? we are learning about practicing in my motor development class at the moment...guess what? IT'S COMPLEX!! Haha the conclusion of every one of his lectures basically says it's complex, and that it is...that it is...d



So how to study? We shall see, but it will be complex...you can be sure of this.



Well did i mention i am bored? yeah....so i will now tell you my finals schedule



Thurs 7:30am--ANATOMY!!

Fri 7:30am--PHYSICAL ACTIVITY PSYCH!!

Fri 4:50pm--ACCOUNTING!!

Mon 9:40--MOTOR DEVELOPMENT!!



Should be fun, i have a schedule for studying...we shall see if I stick with it. Did I mention I am bored? You must be bored too if you are still reading this pointless, waste of time post. Let's be bored together!



I am hungry...bored and hungry...i need some food, DESPERATELY!! I wish we could like virtually eat, you know like overthe internet and the food just comes out our computer? Ha wouldn't that be sweet?



Are you still reading this?! Get a life! Haha, I think I should too...or maybe I should pay attention in school. But did I mention I cannot wait until summer?! Just a week away!! It's like the final stretch of a race...motivation where are you?



Ok, I'm out...sorry to be uninteresting and uninspired....



PEACE!!

(By the way, did you think the title sounded inspiring? haha tricked ya!)