Flying in an airplane...

So as I sit here at starbucks drinking my quad-shot venti caramel machiatto that I got for free :) I am attempting to do some much needed self reflection, but all the comes to mind is a Barney song that makes me think of the little girl I work with. The song goes like this...



"Flying in an airplane, looking out the window

watching the clouds go by..

Flying in an airplane, looking out the window

up so very high..."



So Miya sings this every time we are playing outside and an airplane flies overhead (it's so cute!). Ironically, I think this is the only song that can accurately begin to express where I have been for the last month and a half or so. You see, I feel like I have just been watching the clouds in my life go by, like yes my physical body is here in the present, but my mind is in the clouds just watching the time pass. I'm just up in the air disconnected from the world that I've known, flying in circles with no direction.



April came and went, May is almost half way gone...all the while the clouds were passing by. I've been spread too thin, putting my faith in the clouds. The clouds change, the clouds dissappear, they aren't reliable. I've been left with nothing but blue sky, empty and lost. I want to begin my descent back to reality, back to the core of who I am, back to Christ. I want to be present in this world, living for the sole purpose of Christ. May this summer be one of discovery, one of change, one of growth. May I reach my destination with a successful landing. May He welcome me with open arms as I get off that airplane, and may He remind me that He had been in the cockpit, flying my plane the entire time, never leaving my side.