Peace, Love, and God!

Peace, Love, and God

The light rail is busy right now… probably the busiest I’ve seen it apart from my morning 1-stop commute to Tempe campus. I wonder where everyone is going. There are a few men in suits standing up, probably on their way to lunch or an important meeting, briefcases in hand. I see a few other students working diligently (or not so diligently) on homework. Eww… I see a butt crack! I’m trying to erase that from my memory. Man I just saw it again. Ahhh!
Anyway, I was going to tell you all about what I discovered the first time I helped the homeless like a month ago, but I am giving a speech on the homeless today and have been working on it for the past hour or so. As such, I want to sort of get away from the topic at the moment. I need a break.

Hmmm… what should I talk about? I’m only writing this because I have nothing else to do on my ride back to Tempe. I had planned to pick up a newspaper and do the Sudoku. Then again I had also planned to heat up my chef Boyardee… neither happened. Can I just say how amazing it feels to feel like you are exactly where God wants you to be? I have had an amazing past few weeks and the peace just keeps on coming. I don’t know if it is because my work load has slowed down a bit and given me more free time, or if it’s just my gaining a true understanding of God’s mercy and love and purpose he has given me to live for him. I am just incredibly at peace. It’s extremely refreshing.

I have been feeling this peace for a while, but I think it truly hit me last night when I stayed up until 2:30am doing stuff that I needed to get done. Now the reason it was so late was partly my own procrastination, but also partly a series of time suckers that just happened to prolong my evening. Somehow though, I was at peace and knew that I would be okay. I even tried to sleep some, thinking I would wake up early and finish in the morning, but I couldn’t. There was a feeling inside me that made my heart start racing and hindered my ability to sleep. I think it was unconscious anxiety; I knew that I would be extremely stressed in the morning if I fell asleep at that moment. Anyways I guess there is really no point to that entire story. Oh yeah, it gave me peace.

Anyways, this weekend was AMAZING! The more I hang out with Ember people and get involved, the more I realize that this is where God wants me to be. He’s provided me with a place to belong, a group of people who will accept me even when I have to talk in a high pitched voice, like a ventriloquist, slapping myself, and pretending I have an electric shock going through my body when someone touches me (YAY CURSES!!) Ember fills a whole that has been missing in my life for a long time; I’ve felt like an outsider for so long, it feels like I can breathe again. Thank you all for being you. And thank you God for giving me such a blessing in my life. I feel so fortunate to be at the place that I’m at :)