Calm before the storm

I sit here on the eve of a new semester bored, not knowing what to do. I should be at peace, having at this very moment no obligations. After all, I just spent the last five hours or so doing nothing but puzzles, watching Gossip Girl, and occasionally picking up my guitar and playing a chord or two, all in an attempt to enjoy a peaceful afternoon. And that it was. However peaceful this afternoon was, I now feel uneasy. I feel the anxiety of school already and my semester doesn't start for another 13 hours. Why is that? According to one of my classes last semester, stress is the state of being overwhelmed, but anxiety is the state of being overwhelmed with a sense of impending doom...If I'm already anxious it shows that I see school as a bad thing, as some sort of obstacle standing in my way that is sure to result in my failure. Psychologically this idea is seriously screwed up. First of all, I have never had a problem in school as far as grades and retaining the information goes; so why should I be afraid? Why should I see school as the Big Bad Wolf? Second of all, if I am so afraid of school, why am I in it anyway? Why can't school be more like Little Red Riding Hood, all sweet and innocent? She could be my best friend :) Why do I see school as a dreaded task? Why can't I see it as an opportunity to learn and grow? And now I ask myself why am I asking so many questions in this post? Anyway, the point is, I really want to get it right this semester...by "it" I mean life. I want to be excited about where I am at and what I am doing. I want to take advantage of the opportunities set before me and not see them as burdens. Wow I believe Jason talked about this a few weeks ago, seeing stuff as opportunities not burdens.... haha cool that thought just occured to me. Anyway, that is my goal this semester, to live life joyfully and with good intentions and just see where it goes... I believe that is called living by the Spirit. Look it up in Galatians ;)