Destinations

(My brilliantly amazing photography :/ haha well notice the arrow? I probably should have been turning instead of taking the pic, but hey it's a beautiful AZ sunset so I couldn't resist )

In the journey of life (clique I know), there are two things… the destination and the road

So I recently drove up to Prescott, about a 2.5 hour drive, alone, just to get away. Well, that and though I hate to admit it, I went to avoid life and its many stresses, like homework… ironically and pretty much obviously this was gonna happen, I ended up adding to my stresses rather than just dealing with them. Anyway, this is not my point, it's kinda a tangent. Well, on my drive up there, I looked out across the vast desert land (only briefly for I was the one driving and it probably wasn't a good idea to take my eyes off the road). I thought about how much of that land has never been touched, never walked on by human feet. Yes, there is this highway right in the middle, but on either side it's forgotten by people and probably rarely thought of. Drivers on the highway are typically so focused on the destination that they forget about the journey, all aspects of the journey. Ok, yes a really fun, exciting part of road trips is being on the road, but that usually consists of random car games or blasting random music on the radio to pass the time by. How often do you look around and truly take in the wide open space of nothingness? It is in fact beautiful, this world that God created. Even Arizona, where I've spent a majority of my life and have a desperate desire to get out of, even that is beautiful.

What I'm trying, however slowly, to get at here is the journey of life. We tend to set up destinations as a sort of motivation, a way to make sense of what we are currently doing or working towards. We say "if I can just get to this day, just pass this moment in time, I will be OK." But what about the journey, how you get there, is this not important? What is the point of doing something if you aren't going to sit back and look around and beyond the road? You are just so focused on the destination that you forget about the now, forget about enjoying the now.

I am in this boat; my destinations are what keep me going, but what will happen when the destinations become few and far between? What if I can't see my future? After all, I'm not psychic (though wouldn't that be a cool power to have?) Although I wish I could see my future and know that all I do is for a purpose. It seems everyone I know has a plan, an idea of what they want to do. I can't see myself in 5 years, where I'll be, what I'll be doing… and that scares me so so much…

I do however want to enjoy my journey, to somehow find the time in my suffocating schedule to reflect and enjoy what's in front of me. God has given me so much and if I can't trust in Him and take in all the blessings of this world, then I can't grow. I'll just be flying by on the highway, too afraid to change my destination, too afraid to lose focus. I want to make every day, every second a destination for Him, so that my road becomes my destination and everything comes together. I'm probably totally not making sense right now, but oh well it all somehow connects in my mind. Hope you all have a good day!

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