Purple Sweats

I’m sitting here on the rail in purple pants… sweatpants (see pic above). I like to think that the fact that they are sweat pants makes up entirely for the fact that they are purple… I mean who wears purple pants? Clearly I do lol. Who knew that a $3 pair of sweatpants from Walgreens no less would be so completely comfortable? The rail is pretty dead today, at least by me… maybe I smell? No, I showered and if I do say so myself I think my perfume smells amazingly awesome so that can’t be it…

Anyway, I really have no purpose for writing this … we’re going over Tempe town lake now, it’s so peaceful on the bridge, minus the sound of the lightrail’s air conditioning which is extremely loud… I haven’t had a Comfy Cozy day like this in a while, maybe even all semester thus far. That’s weird, I used to have one at least once a week. I think it’s because of my ballroom dance class. You see, you have to interact with people in that class and you know that they know you. I feel like I have to look good in that class. In my other classes, I’m free to go unnoticed, but in this one, they see you every day…..

Hmmm I’m totally not making sense right now… I think it all comes down to my constant need for approval. Ever since I was a kid, everything I did was to get noticed. Now it’s died down a lot as I grow older, but it’s there. I’m extrinsically motivated… I feed off of others’ feedback versus my own. I think a lot of us are like that too. Why do you think facebook is so popular? Why do you think people blog? We want our ideas known, we want some sort of approval from our peers.

Now I don’t think it’s all too bad to think this way. I mean clearly cyberspace creates a way to keep up with friends and to have some sort of community. However, it’s important to know that that type motivation is a weak foundation, it leads to hurt in the end to rely completely on other people to define your life/ self confidence because people will fail you. I think God provides a better means of motivation. To trust in Him and His word for perseverance, to be rooted and established in his LOVE, that seems like all the motivation I need. What joy that would bring too huh?

Sorry this post is extremely random… it’s just how my thoughts progressed throughout my ride downtown this morning. Who knows if I even made my point? Who knows if I’ll even follow my point seeing as I’ll probably post a status on my facebook wall to read my blog right after I post this lol. Oh well baby steps right? Have a great day all of you J